Infertility- A Small Glimpse into Our Journey

As I sit here drinking my coffee and enjoying this beautiful fall-like weather, I can’t help but reflect on how much life has changed in such a short amount of time. The Lord has given us “exceedingly abundantly” more than we ever thought we would receive.  I have a baby sitting on my lap, staring up at me with his big eyes and it brings to mind the pain I went through to get to this point.  I am going to share a photo with you that brings back a lot of difficult memories of emotional and physical pain.  My hope in sharing it is to bring awareness to the challenges of the infertility journey.

So here it is…..

This.  This is IVF.  You are so distraught over not becoming pregnant, you are willing to inject yourself with shot after shot just for the chance of getting the miracle.  It works for many and becomes their dream come true.  For us, it did not.  I did this more than once.  As a person who was previously terrified of shots, I was giving myself up to 5 shots a day, watching my belly turn black and blue.  IVF is not pretty and it is absolutely devastating when it does not work.

In life we do not always get to see why things don’t go as planned.  Thankfully, though, in this case we are able to look back at the miscarriages, failed IVFs, failed adoptions and see it was all to get to this point:

My two miracles born 9 months apart.  When I held our sweet girl, I had no idea that within a few days her little brother would be conceived naturally!  God is so amazing in His plans.  We often question trials of this life and cannot wrap our minds around why things happen as they do.  Well, this is why our journey had to be so long and painful.  It was because the Lord had the BEST plan of all.  I would not trade any of our journey.  The joy after the mourning is so sweet.
If you are also struggling with infertility, know I have been there.  I have felt every emotion you have and even the ones you are embarrassed to admit.  Do not lose hope.  God has a plan and sometimes it is revealed when you least expect it. 
I am beyond thankful for our path because it led us to the most beautiful babies.  God is good!